HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY!!!

Ytd was sumhow alright bah. Sch was nt bad. econs. hahaha.

at nite, went jp, mum went to get stuff, i went to find D and talk bah. but the auntie spoiler. haha. but we still hack care n talk. lol.

short while only, so decide nt to tell her my problems. i think another tym perhaps. LOL. her hair long liao, Look nice on her. LOL. ^^

Currently in class, MSI. boring. flu. ah sian. :(

HUNGRY~

Training ytd was alright. quite good. I think ytd was worth it la, i went alone cos manfred was sick.

I also learn quite alot of things which is very good. ^^

At least made some friends bah.. kekeke. ^^

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I wish that we could go back
To what we were before

How i wish we can be as good as b4.

but now, i think theres like a barrier. hmm. is it me or wad? heh.

I dunno luh~

perhaps i really have to face reality luh. i am trying my very best rite now. (:

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I wish that we could go back To what we were before~

Do you know what it is to be a lover? Half of a whole?

I know its my fault. but it has been more than a day.

:(

really not used to not seeing ur replies n smses.

Everything my hp light up, I thought it will be you. But then its not. :(

come on~ pls pls~

mixiu mixiu

Why am i so dumb? haish. totally regret. But i know i cant take back the words. :(

really sorry.

Whatever I did jus now, was wrong. The only thing that is right, is falling in love with you.

U look exceptionally nice today~~ *_* ^^

woo. trial was a success~
Coach was quite friendly la. haha. he know my problem and tat is why the 1st trial they nv accepted me. He corrected me. Very good. i like this kind of ppl,instead of some ppl who only judge purely on 1st impression. lousy ppl.

(Y) thanks to my frens who supported me.

Maddie for her faith... lol. 3times liao. haha. kekeke. xiexie.
my class ladies~

Manfred~

and of cos Nicole meowz for encouraging me and doing so much for me. really thanks alot. u're the best~i really appreciate it. (:

I will train hard bah as on the path of joining cuesports, i face alot of obstacles~

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Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
Oh Mandy don't you let me throw it all away
Oh Mandy won't you listen to what I've got to say
And I need you today, oh Mandy

well well, stanley u seen the truth. so u muz accept it no matter wad. i know it hurts but no choice.
Perhaps i need some time heh~~~~ kekeke..though its hard. try try try~

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Sunday-Pool with Dad ytd, she nt bad siol~ i kip losing. haish.

Saturday-Passed FTT WOO!

hmm. thinking back, were my actions considered to be dumb? i really dunno. i chose to support my own stand.. hmm.

Frens helped me ask, they told me to give up. but i seriously dunno if i shld. i cant bear. :( wad to do?

Perhaps i really need an answer from u better. Yes or No at least i can accept it and know its true from u.

i duno luh, think i cranky now. heh. lots of thoughts.

Life is real fragile. take this chance to tell ur loved ones or the person that u like,tell him/her ur feelings.

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Like an apple hanging from a tree.
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed.

Studying for STS, sleeping soon i guess. Passed FTE.

Well, today she did the sweetest thing... haha. thats how i feel la. LOL. DPDP mah. haha. to me its sweet la. kekeke. touched. haha.

Tmr econs and STS ut, hope to play pool tmr. heh.

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Life is unpredictable.
Treasure your loved ones.

Monday. heh. lots of things happen. and i do not like it all.

its a shitty day with craps and bad things. FML.

Not everything though.

I dont know wad to do to make u believe me.

Everything i say to u is true.

Please believe me.
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I'm here without you baby,
But you're still on my lonely mind.

Friday - lost my way wif edmund, reach mambo late. took cab there from balestier i think. FML. hahaha.

Saturday - cancel gym, went for FT practice instead. after that lunch n bball as usual. keke.

Today - driving on road. Nt bad, least can change to 4th gear. gt speed. Nicer than in circuit. tsktsk.

Haven study for UT n FTE. FTE on monday at nite siol!!

Hope spain will win ar..

Sch ytd was alright. nth much. hahaha. usual lor.

after sch, went home to study. haha. webcam wif maddie. she damn funny, wear like ballet dancer. haah. show me how to cook eggs. LOL. acting cute. lol. and giv me step by step instructions. LOLOLOL. haha damn funny la she. like a tour of her hse. hahaha.

LAter having UT sian. many things to worry, UTs,Sales mgmt thingy, My FTT and some thing else. hahaha.

Wish me luck.

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It's true <3

Wad an early morning sight. heh.

If everything u wrote in ur blog or social networking site is true...then i will be sad n happy. sad that the guy is not me. happy that u are happy wif that guy? yea.

Wad to do? its ur decision though. i cannot force u.

perhaps we were not fated to be together.

well, take care and stay happy. there's nth more that i can say.

Econs Ut, okok lor. nth much.

after sch, stay back awhile wif maddie,alberto,ipman,dap to discuss the Sales mgmt thingy.

Then abt 6pm. left de sch, dap n i took cab to Jp, while maddie went to meet her fren, the 2 gaylords went off together,hand in hand..

I told dap to choose the yellow cab, Nicer and more comfortable compared to the old model one. she refused, saying later paiseh, feel very bad. WTH man.... tsktsk. Ok,suit her. took that old cab. The driver took the long way. -.- dap on the way inside still can sms me, saying this uncle took long way, shld have taken the yellow cab!! - u seE? dun wan listen to me. haish. lol

then reach jp, was about $20. i paid 1st, she wan giv me 10, i say giv me 5 can liao, she insist. haish. haha. nvm lor. i take.

She went to work, i went home. tats all.

Sleepy me~

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Time does not heal anything unless you are ready to move on.

JUST HAVE A LITTLE FAITH

seriously, I got to stop doing all these. It's really not worth it. I will just end up falling deeper and get myself hurt even more.

But i just cant control myself. What you want me to do? Whenever i see u talking to him via IM,social networking sites. I get jealous. I mean, i cant control. The feeling just "happens"~

Well, I am happy that if u are happy when u are with him. though sometimes i wish that guy was me. But if u are happy, then it's good then~

Perhaps i still haven move on. I thought i have,i lied to myself i have. But infact deep down in my heart, I have not.

Perhaps i still need more time...really lots of time. I just cant help it.

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D "U must be confident, thinking u are the best for her."
D "she dun like u then dun like lor. There are alot of girls out there,perhaps better ones."
Some of D's famous words~ heh. hope i can folo her advice, i really dunno.

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If roses are meant to be red
And violets to be blue
Why isn't my heart meant for you

haish. this maddie nv come for sch again. tsktsk. cannot disturb her today. LOL.

well webcam wif her today... she kinda act cute and do all funny faces. LOL. funny girl~~~

took cab to interchange wif nic.angel,kenny as it was raining. damn sian. rain spoil my plans.

Back to BL mrt also crowded. damn sian. they nid to improve la. frequency of trains. tsktsk.

After that went out, meet aerith, chatted,jokes,sarcasm. told her my problems. she help me abit lor. Joke wif me. haha. long tym nv see her liao. she's like a sister to me la. Nth else. SO THAT SOMEONE,DUN ANYHOW THINK. kekekekkekekeke

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sometimes knowing the truth is so much better

lies/truth

I would be lying if i said i have move on~

The truth is I cannot forget you at all.

I know that i won’t be with you.

But i cannot stop that feeling.

It hurts me to see that you are with another guy whom is not me.

I can only watch you from afar.

Making sure you are leading a happy life.

Even if i help you, You might not know that it’s me at all.

I just love you that much~